Thursday, December 31, 2009

I'm Not Sure Where This Came From

"I love because I love to be loved," said an old friend of mine once. That has stuck with me for a long time. She said that we all long to give ourselves to someone. And she was right. She is right. You get what you give. If you don't give your entire self, they will never show you their entire self. And believe me, my hearts, everyone wants to see you.

People want to know you. They want to know who you are, what you like, where you come from, the places you've been, the things you've seen. Someone is going to ask you. They want to know about your scars and how you came to be who you are right now. We've all got our stories, right? I, personally, would like to hear yours.

My friend also said that staying mad is never the answer. Again, she's right. Hate is easy, the saying goes. Love takes courage. Judging someone with one glance...oh boy. That's a mistake I make on a daily basis. I'm human, I guess. We're a fallen people, right? I know this but I still can't help but beat myself up over that kind of stuff. Realizing the hate that I so often show... That sends a sharp pain right through my heart. I'm not even kidding you. Hate and anger... I couldn't bear it. We shouldn't ever hold on to those things for too long. They could destroy our very being. Am I right?

Love easier and more freely, I say. You'll find a peace and tranquilty you may have never known before. An abundance of joy. Being well stocked on joy could mean sharing it to those around you. It does mean sharing it.

Look. Things happen. Bad and good things. We have no control over any of it. You get the hand your dealt and you play the cards you've got. A good card player can rise even with the worst cards in his hand, I assure you. Bad things happen so we don't take the good for granted. We need those slaps in the face sometimes. The good things? Well, you deserve those whether you believe it or not. You're good. You're worth it. Don't you fret, my heart. Remember that "tough times don't last but tough people do." And that "everything happens for a reason."

Lately, I've been trying to live fairly. Taking what I need and nothing less. It's an art that's hard and nearly impossible to perfect but isn't just about everything? As long as we try hard to be better people, we'll be just fine.

Who you are right now, where you are right this second, the people you know and love today, don't ever take any of it for granted. The choices you've made and the things you have and haven't done make you who you are. And who you are is wonderful. Who you are is absolutely beautiful. So that word--regret? Leave it behind and don't you ever look back. Don't dwell in the past, my friends. And you know what? While you're at it, you can just throw away that rearview mirror you've got in your head. You won't be needing it where you're going. Where is that? Some place great, I just know it.

You have what it takes, trust me. Whether you believe you're strong or not, you are. I don't care what you say or think. I'm right. This life you lead will get hard. Really, really hard. It's not going to be easy but the people in it will be there to help get you through it. They were sent to you for a reason. And this may be hard to believe for you, but you were sent to them for a reason, too. You need them and they need you. How 'bout them apples, right?

Please understand that you have what it takes.

Keep moving forward, darling. You're doing just fine. There are some really wonderful moments and memories to be made and you'll be late if you just keep sitting there.

"Live for the possibilities, not the guarentees," my wise friend told me, "and be who you really are inside."

Please, never stop dreaming and reaching for that goal. No matter what they tell you. No one knows what they're talking about so don't listen to anyone.

Cry a lot. Believe me when I tell you, it'll keep you from going plum crazy. Laughing, too. Laugh till your abs go numb. It will not only help you, but it'll infect everyone around you. It's the greatest disease God ever made, in my opinion.

Above all, keep following Him. He likes to keep secrets, mind you, so you won't know where he's taking you. However, I'm confident that if you did know, life wouldn't be so exciting. He knows where you're going and so that is where you keep your trust. Right there. In Him. He's got you. You're His.

So am I. So is your neighbor. So why not love each other like we were all His, eh? Love, my hearts. Love hard. No, that's not going to be easy either. Some days, you aren't going to feel like loving. But you will...because that's what love is. Sometimes it'll hurt. I know it will. For some, it's going to hurt really bad but please never stop. I swear to you it's worth it. It's what's going to keep this world alive. It is the very reason we were created. Our very core. I believe love will be my greatest accomplishment in this life. And that's the truth.

And lastly, don't you dare settle for anything less than you deserve. You deserve A LOT, my friends. Please remember that. Remember what I'm telling you. You are worth being fought for, being loved unconditionally, being happy beyond belief, and being wanted. I promise if I find out you settled, I'll hunt you down. I'll come get you and drag you the hell out of there by your ear. I'm telling you that right now.

Live happily, don't sweat the small things, and whatever you do, do not hold back.
You'll be just fine, my love. You're doing just fine.

Thank you, Lindsey Salles, for inspiring me.

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