I Am Not Perfect

I am not perfect.

I am stubborn and hardheaded. I have an extreme amount of pride that gets me in to trouble more than anything. I lie...A LOT. I’m lazy. I am an adult who skips meals because I literally forget to eat. I don’t take care of myself well enough so my friends and family suffer. I have let so many people down this year that I'm afraid to count the casualties. I am an overly dramatic person. Most of the time, I’m too passionate for my own good. My head is so far in the clouds that I fear I’ll never come back down again. Six out of the seven days of the week are bad hair days for me. I am the world’s biggest hypocrite. I am also the most self-centered person I have ever met. And like everyone else, I am my own worst enemy.

I have woken up every day for the past month and prayed to God that I may love like Christ and live like His mother. But do I ever succeed? No. Never. Not one day. Talk about a blow to the ole ego, eh?

It kind of makes me sick to my stomach when I think about how badly I fail every day.

But then I remember.

I am not perfect.

But I am loved. Not just loved but adored. He adored me so much that He died for me. No matter what I have ever done or ever will do, He will always love me in the most unconditional and purest way you could ever imagine.

I am not perfect. I fall every day several times a day but I’m trying. I swear I am. I am trying to figure out how to live a life that will glorify my Father. I’m just a girl. I’m just a very flawed girl who is trying to make it to Heaven and get my loved ones there, too.

I am not perfect. Despite all of my imperfections, I am proud of who I am and who I’m growing to be. A man recently told me that “we weren’t made to be comfortable.” He said that we are constantly being stretched like this for a reason. That if we are comfortable, something is wrong. So now I get it. These imperfections are blessings, right? They are forming and molding me to be the woman I aspire to be. Without these flaws, how will I grow? So I get it.

So why am I telling you this? I honestly have no idea. But I guess I'm just saying that you guys are wonderful people. You know why? Because you are a creation of the hand of the all-powerful King. You are strong and worthy of His love. You are GOOD. So good. And yes, you're imperfect. But that is an absolutely marvelous compliment!! You are becoming God's original masterpiece. No matter what your age, you are constantly growing and you will never stop. Now put THAT in your pipe and smoke it.

Straight frontin’.
(Sorry. I had to add thug life somewhere in here.)